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Post by Reagan Harper on Mar 14, 2011 18:37:29 GMT -4
Hey Iz,
Remember when we use to pass just silly letters in the hall to eachother between classes to give us something to do while waiting for our next class to end? I miss that. I realize I've been keeping a distance between us that you don't deserve. I just wanted you to know that I'm sorry. Really sorry. I just tend to try to handle things on my own, even though I'm realizing that's not the best for me. I know you're going through a lot too, and I just don't want to be that person who places the burden. But I can't just sit here and watch whats happening to our friendship because of me. I love you Iz and I miss you a lot.
Help me fix this?
-Reagan
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Post by Isabelle Viles on Mar 15, 2011 0:16:55 GMT -4
Reagan,
Of course I remember! I also remember Jacob and the boys always tried to steal it from us because they thought we were writing about them. Do you remember the time I got Embry to walk around in my cheer uniform because I convinced him that we were confessing our undying love for him in the note when really we were only writing about different flavors of ice cream? Those were the days. When it was all of us together, against the world. I miss that. I miss you. Reagan, you're my best friend. You should never feel like you can't talk to me about something or that you are a burden. You're not. I feel like I have all of these problems and no one wants to be around me because it's all I talk or think about. That's not true, though, I think about you a lot. I know I can get a little crazy sometimes, especially lately, but I don't want you to ever think that I don't care about our friendship. Our friendship is one of the most important things to me. You are one of the most important things to me. You're not only my best friend, but my sister and I can't live without you. Rea, I want you to tell me everything that's been going on and why you were pulling yourself away from me and Bren, but I want you to tell me in your own time.
I love you,
Izzy.
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Post by Reagan Harper on Mar 16, 2011 15:00:29 GMT -4
Izzy,
Are brothers are theives, but so are we -insert obnoxious wink here-. I'm still laughing about last night. I wonder if Nate will ever figure out who the real culprit is? Aaha. And I still have a picture of Embry in your cheer uniform in my locker from that day. Anyway, on a more serious note, thanks for your words Izzy. I needed to hear them. I hate the fact that I feel like I need to be constantly reassured about everything, and I hate that my faith is so shaken because of past events. Izzy, please know that I didn't avoid you because you also have hardships. At least you're strong enough to talk about them. Our friendship is important to me too Iz. And you period. I know I need to open up more and I'm trying to, but it is definitely something that is taking some time. I guess the first thing I should start with is that I'm worried about my mom. The hospital is becoming my second home, and I hate that so many people I care about have been there frequently- Mr. Hobbes, Alana's family, and my mom. God Izzy, I know this sounds horrible but I wish I didn't care about her. She never cared about me. She was the one who walked out on my dad and I, so why can't I walk out on her? I just keep hoping the hospital will release her so I wouldn't have to feel this..obligation.. to go and visit, but they just keep continuing her stay. Gran is noticing it's taking a toll on me, and I.. It did. I did something terrible Izzy. Something I hope I'll never do again. The worse thing is, I can't promise that I won't though. I know how I am, I always end up falling back into the same mistakes...
I think I'll stop there for now. The bell is about to ring and I want to get this to your locker before your cheer practice. I love you Izzy and thanks for listening.
-Reagan
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Post by Isabelle Viles on Mar 31, 2011 0:25:13 GMT -4
Reagan,
It honestly probably can't be as bad as me cheating on my imprint and then almost doing it again...with the same guy. Reagan, whatever you've done don't think that for one second I have any right to judge you on it. I'm just as screwed if not more. Trust me, I know what you mean when you say that it seems like everyone is going through this right now. I feel like one minute Bill is in the hospital, then Alana's mom, then Pete. It's like a tornado of pain and I can't find my way out.
I'm so lost right now, Rea. I mean usually when I think about my dad, my mom, Uncle Harry, Sarah, it just hurts. I don't want to think about them like that, but I do. I know Seth and Leah are still so upset about Harry and then throw in Bill getting sick again and everything is just effed up.
I'm sitting in Spanish right now and not paying attention to anything Senora Logan is saying. It's sometihng about conjugating verbs, though. Anyway, I feel like I haven't seen my boyfriend in days. That's a bad thing right? I mean you and Bren are doing well right now. Nate seems happy with that Evan girl. Kerli and Jayden are okay for once. Ana and Davis are perfect as always. I just feel like Pete thinks that I still love Jake. And maybe a part of my does, a part of me always will. I can't go there right now though.
Tell me what's wrong. It's what I'm here for.
I love you.
Izzy.
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