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Post by Reagan Harper on Aug 16, 2010 10:49:55 GMT -4
Jacob,
I need to know where we stand. I can’t play this game anymore. I don’t want to label what we have in such negative terms, calling it a ‘game’ and all, but is it? One minute we’re just friends and the next we’re telling eachother it might be more than that. Which one is it, Jacob? I need you to be honest with me. I don’t… Don’t want to keep getting my hopes up about something that maybe isn’t meant to be. That’s the last thing I want to believe Jacob, trust me when I say that, but maybe it’s true. Please don’t lead me on like Bella did with you. I know, I’m horrible for saying that. I just remember how broken you were…and maybe still partly are… through the whole thing and selfish me is scared to feel that way. Mainly because if I did, I know I would even take it harder than you did. I don’t want that to stop you from being honest with me though, Jacob. Hurt me now when I can still take it then later down the road where it might be too unbearable. God Jacob, I remember Izzy telling me how much it hurt to love you and now I know what she means. It hurt hiding my true feelings from you, but it hurts even more now that you know and there’s the possibility that you don’t … or can’t… feel the same way about me. You can’t control your feelings Jacob, so please don’t think I’m blaming you in anyway. I can’t force you to love me. I also can’t force you to be honest with me, but as your best friend in the least Jacob, I’m begging you to let me know. Do you love me too? Will we ever be an item? Or are my feelings one-sided? Don’t continue to confuse me. Give me the wrong colored crayon all you want, but don’t confuse the one thing of mine you have complete control over of. My heart.
I love you Jacob, feelings returned or not.
-Reagan
I need to know where we stand. I can’t play this game anymore. I don’t want to label what we have in such negative terms, calling it a ‘game’ and all, but is it? One minute we’re just friends and the next we’re telling eachother it might be more than that. Which one is it, Jacob? I need you to be honest with me. I don’t… Don’t want to keep getting my hopes up about something that maybe isn’t meant to be. That’s the last thing I want to believe Jacob, trust me when I say that, but maybe it’s true. Please don’t lead me on like Bella did with you. I know, I’m horrible for saying that. I just remember how broken you were…and maybe still partly are… through the whole thing and selfish me is scared to feel that way. Mainly because if I did, I know I would even take it harder than you did. I don’t want that to stop you from being honest with me though, Jacob. Hurt me now when I can still take it then later down the road where it might be too unbearable. God Jacob, I remember Izzy telling me how much it hurt to love you and now I know what she means. It hurt hiding my true feelings from you, but it hurts even more now that you know and there’s the possibility that you don’t … or can’t… feel the same way about me. You can’t control your feelings Jacob, so please don’t think I’m blaming you in anyway. I can’t force you to love me. I also can’t force you to be honest with me, but as your best friend in the least Jacob, I’m begging you to let me know. Do you love me too? Will we ever be an item? Or are my feelings one-sided? Don’t continue to confuse me. Give me the wrong colored crayon all you want, but don’t confuse the one thing of mine you have complete control over of. My heart.
I love you Jacob, feelings returned or not.
-Reagan
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