Dear Jacob

[Isabelle Viles]

Dear Jacob,
I'm writing this, wondering what the hell I was thinking. Most of these days I just sit and try to forget all of those days that I loved you more than the world. I try and try and try, but it seems impossible. And I know I shouldn't, but I do still love you. I'll never love you with my entire heart, and for that you deserve something so much better. Because no matter how much I love you, I'm in love with him. Pete, I don't know how to explain it. It's supernatural really, and I know it might be hurting you to read this and for that I am sorry. You have to know, I want nothing but good things for you. I want you to get married and have little Jacobs running around, I want you to become alpha after Sam stops phasing, I want you to have everything you ever dreamed of having Jacob Black. I sorry, for being this cold hearted monster. I never imagined I'd become what I hate the most. Isabella Swan. I'm sorry for reminding you of her, but it's the truth. I am not supposed to be that girl in sappy teenage movies that is in love with two equally amazing guys at the same time. Don't make me choose. Because I would choose him every time.

But I loved you. Oh God, how much I loved you. You were my everything all bottled up into one body. I thought about everyday, I saw you when I could and when I did I tried to show you how much I loved you, but for some reason you never saw that side. You saw your best friend that was pretty enough to date, but my God I loved you. I loved you so much it hurt. Every night I dreamt about you, I cried when you dated other girls and I wanted to shout to the heavens when you asked me out on a date. We dated and those were the best times of my life. The times I got to call you mine and no one else's. I loved you. I love you. It's not fair, Jake! I love you so much and I have someone who loves me, and I can't love him with my whole heart because of you! You. You make is impossible to get over you and I know this is unfair of me but it's the truth. How can you just sit there, obvious to the way I feel about you. It's me, and I'm here and you'll never see that.

And I know one day I might actually show you this letter and I hope we laugh. I hope by then we've moved on and forget all the pain we've put each other through. I hope so Jacob, otherwise I don't know how I'm going to go on. You're supposed to be my best friend, not this person I'm pining for like a silly little girl. So I've said my peace.


I love you Jacob Ephraim Black. Don't you ever forget that.


-Isabelle

[Isabelle Viles]

Dear Jacob.
The sun actually came out today. I thought it might be a sign, but it wasn't. You weren't here where I wanted you to be. Instead, you spent time with Bella. I've started to see her in a different light, before I couldn't stand her, and now I've started to see how she feels. She has this amazing guy in her life that she loves, and then she has you, that she can't but love. And that is exactly how I feel. You are no good for me, but Peter is. And yet I can't help but love you. I'm sure you're hating these letters because all I've been doing is whining. I'm sorry about that, I'll give you some happy thoughts.

So ten years ago I realized I was in love with you. And then seven years later you asked me out. Of course you made me wait seven years. You were always stubborn as hell. Princess Jaquab, my love. Haha. I remember how pissed off I was when I found out you were going out with my sister. I think I didn't talk to her or you for three days. Sage was afraid to come home. Anyway, I got over it soon enough but you know I'll never get over you. You know that, and I know that and Pete knows that.

So, Bella is actually kind of a great person. I can see why you love her...Even if that depresses me to think so. She's kind of perfect for you. She's nice and you always did like older women. Of course, I'm younger than you. Honestly, I don't know what in the world you saw in me? That skinny little girl you grew up with that was in love you from the age of seven until now, I know it may not be today or tomorrow but I know I'll get over you one day. Hopefully, it's not fair for Pete and it's not to you. And it's definitely not fair to me.

I'll try. But for now, I love you.


-Isabelle

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